packing

I've done three loads of laundry so far, and have about three more to do. Still need to finish packing for the next few days, throw out stuff, and sort through everything for the movers tomorrow. I really waited until the last minute to do this stuff.

I'm trying to be diligent and not pause too much. Pause to sniffle and cry, as it's slowly dawning on me that we are really leaving our home for the past ten years. I've focused so much on what's ahead that I haven't really given due reflection on saying goodbye. I hate saying goodbye, and there's a part of me that just wants to rush into the next thing instead of allowing myself to fully feel the sense of loss that comes from moving on.

I've been telling myself that it's not that bad and that we're not moving too far. Yet as I realize how much I'll miss being part of our NorCal friends' daily lives, it makes me teary. Even though I haven't said it, I'm really going to miss all of you.